That Man City game, it wasn't that I was actively wanting us to concede goals and lose, I don't think I could ever do that in a live game.
It was more looking at the outcome at the end and thinking that defeat in that match was an OK outcome, given the alternative which would have been utterly intolerable.
Losing that game had no lasting negative impact on us.
..yep, wanted us to get beat in that game if it meant the Reds losing the league.