Not much to update this week so far.
Had my bad tea last night, been eating low calorie salads for lunch as well all week so far. Monday and tuesday was a bit of a pain in the arse because i didn't eat that much monday, then tuesday i apparantly under ate despite having pudding after my tea. Yesterday was probably under calorie wise as well despite the bad tea.
To be honest i am starting to lax the whole thing now. It has been two months and in my little bubble in the world, it is miserable to cut myself completely off from anything. So as i have said rfecently, i am more pushing to eat a bit more freely but making sure the healthy side is still there. The weight loss may be slow as a result sure but as long as i keep dropping, it helps the long term eating as well. So that means i am still going to avoid sweet stuff and snacks and sugar and bread/pasta (although getting a baguette today for lunch) and still aim to eat 5 a days, smaller meals, water etc. The lack of workouts will slow it down sure, but maintained all along the main thing was the long term aspect of it. So if i can eat more freely like i would if i was already down another couple stone, then i will find it easier to adapt 3,4,5 months down the line.
To be honest my attitude change is just down to how difficult i just find it. First 2 weeks i was crash dieting and tbh if i had maintained that over 2 months i'd have put myself in hospital as a result. Looking now to at least drop weight and not feel like i can't eat anything. Still will strive to be active, will do workouts when i can and insanity will start up again enxt week so perhaps, or i hope, i can naturally fall back into an old routine rather than force myself to.