Bluerover
Player Valuation: £60m
Hello friends.
I finally have the energy physically and mentally to come visit you. The past week has been very tough, I have felt pain in my heart and soul so deeply that I have not desired to communicate much. The isolation of Covid also made me withdraw to focus on the pain that I'm feeling for those parents who once again have lost their kids to the non-sense that it is gun violence. It may be hard for some people to comprehend my devastation, after all, this keeps happening over and over in the US. But that sense of reality feels even more real as my daughter gets older and becomes aware of this violence that she thinks she is immune to it. It hit me the hardest a few days ago when my daughter found me crying outside and came ask why I was so sad, so I told her that I was still hurting for those families that have lost their children. Then I went off to tell her how is important for her to be aware of her surroundings (it really is a sickening feeling having to tell your child how to act if she has to deal with a mass shooting at her school), how to react if she were to encounter such situation, then Sofia gives me a big hug and tells me not to worry because such a thing would never happen in Asheville. That was my breaking point because the truth is that it could happen, she is not invulnerable to this country's epidemic, but I didn't want to break her heart too, so I didn't say anything and just hug her tightly against me, hoping she never has to deal with such terrifying situation. So the past few days have been too dark for me to express myself, and I ended up getting Covid. I had a few rough days running fever, but I think we are finally on the mend.
I have missed you all and I hope everyone is doing well. xxx
Sass, stay strong my friend. Very apt that your daughter is named Sofia/Sophia - Greek for Wisdom.
In the Book of Wisdom, the spirit of Wisdom is clearly a female.
If we live in fear, then the gun toting terrorists are winning.
My thoughts and my prayers are with you and your family. Personally, I have had a crappy five years for a number of reasons. Really low from Christmas to about a month ago - it was the first Christmas without my dear Mum. I also had terrible physical pin with sciatica and back problems, and spent long hours lying in bed - not even interested in listening to the radio.
I find prayer is comforting but sometimes we just can't pray because we are so down. At these times St Paul says:
"We live with aspects of the age to come, even as we struggle with aspects of the old age.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. God knows our limitations and frustrations. S/He knows that our flesh is weak even when our spirit is willing, so his Spirit intercedes for us, even for needs that cannot be put into words.
God’s Spirit does not remove our weakness, but helps us in our weakness. S/He bridges the gap between old and new, between what we see and what he has declared us to be."
Rom 8:26-27
God Bless amiga mia.
