Discussion & help on depression & mental health related issues

I spent quite a lot of my life mistaking depression and anxiety, I've no doubt had some fairly severe depression at varying stages in my life but anxiety wasn't actually diagnosed and treated until 3/4 years ago. The CBT was great and the difference in social situations has been massive, there's still a lot of work to do but I'm managing the simple things without getting anxious about them.

I've said before but it really was the simplest things that got me, walking into a pub/restaurant and it feeling like the whole focus was on me and absolutely crippling me to the point I'd turn round and leave more often than not. I found I'd always pick seats which were hidden away and if there weren't any I'd leave. I'd get to the door for interviews, appointments or social events and stand outside fighting with myself to go in, I'd invariably turn around and go home feeling like a complete loser and beat myself up about it. There was a time where even on here I'd post something and if it was challenged I'd feel hugely anxious about responding in case my argument was picked apart and I looked stupid, hence I just deliberately make myself look stupid before anyone else does now.

I type the above out and think how utterly mad it is that I worry about things that minor, but I'm not really arsed what anyone thinks of it and it's good to be open because there''ll definitely be someone else reading it that feels to daft to type it. That's what I tell myself anyone.

I found going to goodison a real struggle... packed pubs beforehand and going on the train rammed with people, it was like torture to be honest.. I only enjoyed a handful of games cos my anxiety was through the roof.. that's why I didn't re-new my season ticket really.

im hoping these meds will get rid of those horrible negative feelings that run through your head and make situations feel 1000 times worse than what they really are..

fair play to you for facing your demons head on …
 
I found going to goodison a real struggle... packed pubs beforehand and going on the train rammed with people, it was like torture to be honest.. I only enjoyed a handful of games cos my anxiety was through the roof.. that's why I didn't re-new my season ticket really.

im hoping these meds will get rid of those horrible negative feelings that run through your head and make situations feel 1000 times worse than what they really are..

fair play to you for facing your demons head on …

See how they go mate and get them upped if they aren't having much impact, try and get out if only for a stroll round the block as well, headphones in and forget the world for a bit.
 
Mum's been diagnosed with cancer. She avoided telling me for days because she didn't want to disturb me from my exams. Dad ended up calling me earlier today to let me know. That was the first time I've heard him cry. It's disturbing how life can change in an instant. One day you're living a good life, planing your retirement with your partner and the next day you have to scramble everything and prepare to fight for your life.

I'm in another part of the country in a big city all by myself. I wasn't doing particularly well before but now I'm completely wrecked. Mum says that I don't have to come home because studying and getting my diploma is what will make her happy. Haven't been able to think about anything today, let alone focus on my studies. The fact that my parents are supporting me financially makes it even harder. Sorry for being such a downer but I don't really have anyone to vent to.

I feel like crap. This is the lowest I've ever been.
 
Mum's been diagnosed with cancer. She avoided telling me for days because she didn't want to disturb me from my exams. Dad ended up calling me earlier today to let me know. That was the first time I've heard him cry. It's disturbing how life can change in an instant. One day you're living a good life, planing your retirement with your partner and the next day you have to scramble everything and prepare to fight for your life.

I'm in another part of the country in a big city all by myself. I wasn't doing particularly well before but now I'm completely wrecked. Mum says that I don't have to come home because studying and getting my diploma is what will make her happy. Haven't been able to think about anything today, let alone focus on my studies. The fact that my parents are supporting me financially makes it even harder. Sorry for being such a downer but I don't really have anyone to vent to.

I feel like crap. This is the lowest I've ever been.
So sorry to hear mate, thinking of you and your family x
 
Mum's been diagnosed with cancer. She avoided telling me for days because she didn't want to disturb me from my exams. Dad ended up calling me earlier today to let me know. That was the first time I've heard him cry. It's disturbing how life can change in an instant. One day you're living a good life, planing your retirement with your partner and the next day you have to scramble everything and prepare to fight for your life.

I'm in another part of the country in a big city all by myself. I wasn't doing particularly well before but now I'm completely wrecked. Mum says that I don't have to come home because studying and getting my diploma is what will make her happy. Haven't been able to think about anything today, let alone focus on my studies. The fact that my parents are supporting me financially makes it even harder. Sorry for being such a downer but I don't really have anyone to vent to.

I feel like crap. This is the lowest I've ever been.

I know it is very early days, but has your mum got a Mac Nurse ?

He / she will sit down with your family and guide you all through what is going to happen.

They will help you get your head around it and focus on what needs to be done to help with supporting your mum.

Also look after your dad in all this mate, as he will need all the support you can give him too.

If it was me, I would go and see her, as it will just wreck your head if you don`t go and see her.

I know she says that there is no need to go and see her, but that is what mums do is, they take all the flak on themselves for the good of everyone else.

Keep posting mate x
 
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Just back in Ireland from my uncles funeral. He was in London since 1957.
Nice service and that. But left me feeling down. Not so much the bereavement but all his family celebrating his life and that. Felt a bit alone in the sense that I have no partner or kids and it's something I miss having. I'm not old but just thing that ship has sailed for me. The kids bit anyway.
So much pressure in modern life to conform to the idealistic wife and two,I've had a go at marriage twice and have three grown children who I love,but being honest I'm happier and more balanced living alone.Obviously different for everybody,but just don't feel pressured to fit in.
 
Mum's been diagnosed with cancer. She avoided telling me for days because she didn't want to disturb me from my exams. Dad ended up calling me earlier today to let me know. That was the first time I've heard him cry. It's disturbing how life can change in an instant. One day you're living a good life, planing your retirement with your partner and the next day you have to scramble everything and prepare to fight for your life.

I'm in another part of the country in a big city all by myself. I wasn't doing particularly well before but now I'm completely wrecked. Mum says that I don't have to come home because studying and getting my diploma is what will make her happy. Haven't been able to think about anything today, let alone focus on my studies. The fact that my parents are supporting me financially makes it even harder. Sorry for being such a downer but I don't really have anyone to vent to.

I feel like crap. This is the lowest I've ever been.
Cancer is obviously a serious disease but treatments are becoming more effective every year.I was diagnosed eleven years ago with a particularly nasty variety but am still here taking my weekly roller coaster ride as a Blue.Just try your best not to let your imagination get too far ahead of you.
 
So much pressure in modern life to conform to the idealistic wife and two,I've had a go at marriage twice and have three grown children who I love,but being honest I'm happier and more balanced living alone.Obviously different for everybody,but just don't feel pressured to fit in.
I don't feel under pressure to have them.
But I would like to have kids.
Wife's are overrated!!
 
I know it is very early days, but has your mum got a Mac Nurse ?

He / she will sit down with your family and guide you all through what is going to happen.

They will help you get your head around it and focus on what needs to be done to help with supporting your mum.

Also look after your dad in all this mate, as he will need all the support you can give him too.

If it was me, I would go and see her, as it will just wreck your head if you don`t go and see her.

I know she says that there is no need to go and see her, but that is what mums do is, they take all the flak on themselves for the good of everyone else.

Keep posting mate x

Yeah I'm booking a trip back home for the weekend despite may parents saying otherwise. I know I can't help that much but I feel useless here by myself while all of this is going on. I've been on the phone with dad again for almost an hour and it seems he's starting to take it better. It's just been a shock for us but we've starting to figure it all out. We'll take it step by step and see where it leads us.

As for the cancer, the cancer is not terminal and is supposedly very treatable but we still don't know the full extent of it. She's undergoing a surgery next week to take a lymph node out and then see where it's located and what stage it is.


Dunno what a Mac Nurse is, we're Croatian so we're a bit behind on that tech heh.
 

Yeah I'm booking a trip back home for the weekend despite may parents saying otherwise. I know I can't help that much but I feel useless here by myself while all of this is going on. I've been on the phone with dad again for almost an hour and it seems he's starting to take it better. It's just been a shock for us but we've starting to figure it all out. We'll take it step by step and see where it leads us.

As for the cancer, the cancer is not terminal and is supposedly very treatable but we still don't know the full extent of it. She's undergoing a surgery next week to take a lymph node out and then see where it's located and what stage it is.


Dunno what a Mac Nurse is, we're Croatian so we're a bit behind on that tech heh.

Apologies mate, I assumed you were in the UK.

A Macmillian Nurse ( Mac Nurse ) is nurse who specialises in supporting and looking after cancer patients and their families.

Do you have anything similar in Croatia ?
 
Apologies mate, I assumed you were in the UK.

A Macmillian Nurse ( Mac Nurse ) is nurse who specialises in supporting and looking after cancer patients and their families.

Do you have anything similar in Croatia ?
I wouldn't know. I thought it was a computer program mate, like Mac.

The doctor was very kind in accommodating my mum in a hospital room immediately so she is getting proper care. Our system is not the best so it would've taken more time otherwise. We've had great support from a few family friends who pulled some strings with more renowned private sector specialists to speed things up a bit if we needed more tests and second opinions, so that is a blessing.
 
Yeah I'm booking a trip back home for the weekend despite may parents saying otherwise. I know I can't help that much but I feel useless here by myself while all of this is going on. I've been on the phone with dad again for almost an hour and it seems he's starting to take it better. It's just been a shock for us but we've starting to figure it all out. We'll take it step by step and see where it leads us.

As for the cancer, the cancer is not terminal and is supposedly very treatable but we still don't know the full extent of it. She's undergoing a surgery next week to take a lymph node out and then see where it's located and what stage it is.


Dunno what a Mac Nurse is, we're Croatian so we're a bit behind on that tech heh.
Don't get to concerned yet about what stage of cancer she has,theTNM staging can be misleading the grading of the cells is far more important and they won't know that before more in depth tests.People tend to panic (which is understandable) if they are told a cancer has spread,but that's not the whole story.I'm sure it's been found in time and she'll have a good outcome.
 
Some of you may remember that I have posted a few times about social anxiety. I have been feeling well for several months now so I decided to go on a staff night out tonight. Thought I was ready for it. I'm sorry to say that I found it a real struggle, it really set my anxiety off. Couldn't wait to get away. I'm not even sure what the issue is or why it's so difficult for me.
 
Some of you may remember that I have posted a few times about social anxiety. I have been feeling well for several months now so I decided to go on a staff night out tonight. Thought I was ready for it. I'm sorry to say that I found it a real struggle, it really set my anxiety off. Couldn't wait to get away. I'm not even sure what the issue is or why it's so difficult for me.

Doesn’t need to be a reason mate.

One step at a time.
 

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