Messymascot's faith in humanity and ginger safe haven

Hello everyone, hope you're all good.

Well I didn't get in touch with anyone, just don't feel in the right mind place, it's an open ended thing anyway, so whenever I am right. My therapist thinks my self care is low and so has tasked me this week with writing down anything positive or productive I have done that day.

Unfortunately I think the depression has sunk it's teeth in again, here we go, every day the same old same old it is soul sucking.

Anyway enjoy your day guys.
 
Terrarian said:
Hello everyone, hope you're all good.

Well I didn't get in touch with anyone, just don't feel in the right mind place, it's an open ended thing anyway, so whenever I am right. My therapist thinks my self care is low and so has tasked me this week with writing down anything positive or productive I have done that day.

Unfortunately I think the depression has sunk it's teeth in again, here we go, every day the same old same old it is soul sucking.

Anyway enjoy your day guys.
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Been there mate, but take it step by step with that - a good thing doesn't need to be a big thing! Could be considered positive you got out of bed, made coffee, had breakfast, played a game you like etc.

Let us know how you get along and stay strong, no doubt we're all here if you need to vent :)
 
Terrarian said:
Hello everyone, hope you're all good.

Well I didn't get in touch with anyone, just don't feel in the right mind place, it's an open ended thing anyway, so whenever I am right. My therapist thinks my self care is low and so has tasked me this week with writing down anything positive or productive I have done that day.

Unfortunately I think the depression has sunk it's teeth in again, here we go, every day the same old same old it is soul sucking.

Anyway enjoy your day guys.
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Well you can tick off today as this post is as positive as it gets T .So sorry to hear it has reared it's ugly head again .Tomorrow a post on Daisy will fill the quota and we can go from there . You are doing the right thing not contacting if you don't feel up to it as it could make you feel worse so well done that man . Try to post again tomorrow to let us all know how you are ,I know sometimes you don't want to but for us and Karl please try .B.
 
Terrarian said:
Hello everyone, hope you're all good.

Well I didn't get in touch with anyone, just don't feel in the right mind place, it's an open ended thing anyway, so whenever I am right. My therapist thinks my self care is low and so has tasked me this week with writing down anything positive or productive I have done that day.

Unfortunately I think the depression has sunk it's teeth in again, here we go, every day the same old same old it is soul sucking.

Anyway enjoy your day guys.
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It has passed over you before T and it will do so again. In the meantime you enjoy the simple things be it a bit of music or gaming. Great words from @DualityNSNO and @blue1948 about not falling into the trap of setting the bar too high for yourself.

And like the rest of us, be thankful of an Everton free weekend ;)
 
blue1948 said:
Well you can tick off today as this post is as positive as it gets T .So sorry to hear it has reared it's ugly head again .Tomorrow a post on Daisy will fill the quota and we can go from there . You are doing the right thing not contacting if you don't feel up to it as it could make you feel worse so well done that man . Try to post again tomorrow to let us all know how you are ,I know sometimes you don't want to but for us and Karl please try .B.
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Beat me to it Blue.
 
Thanks , I appreciate the words of kindness. I am not totally at rock bottom at the minute, I haven't started crying for England yet lol when I have depression deep I cry a lot, a part of my borderline personality disorder I guess.

I am trying to do 10k steps a day with Daisy, weather dependant though, although I am managing about 5 days from 7. I'm just mainly struggling with the monotony of my daily life/routine and also the isolation, which is odd given I could contact people if I wanted to. Catch 22 situation, my flat is my safe place but also my "prison".

I'll get there again, round and round I go, it's draining.
 
Terrarian said:
Thanks , I appreciate the words of kindness. I am not totally at rock bottom at the minute, I haven't started crying for England yet lol when I have depression deep I cry a lot, a part of my borderline personality disorder I guess.

I am trying to do 10k steps a day with Daisy, weather dependant though, although I am managing about 5 days from 7. I'm just mainly struggling with the monotony of my daily life/routine and also the isolation, which is odd given I could contact people if I wanted to. Catch 22 situation, my flat is my safe place but also my "prison".

I'll get there again, round and round I go, it's draining.
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Can you go to any new place like, even if it's the park or something, for a bit?

I know it helped me back when I was at my lowest - just went to a local coffee shop or Starbucks or something, or to a place in the park. I know you're still by yourself there so it's not as great but it's a start and you'll see and experience a new place I suppose; headphones in and a bit of a walk, you know.
 
DualityNSNO said:
Can you go to any new place like, even if it's the park or something, for a bit?

I know it helped me back when I was at my lowest - just went to a local coffee shop or Starbucks or something, or to a place in the park. I know you're still by yourself there so it's not as great but it's a start and you'll see and experience a new place I suppose; headphones in and a bit of a walk, you know.
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I walk round the park with Daisy, I'm hoping for a better summer with less rain so we can go further afield though. I try to mix it up for her so she doesn't do the same walk but it's hard when it pisses down all the time.

My therapist asked about going somewhere different, she said the pub but I don't drink. Thing is I can't be around other people for long and I'd also get paranoid on my own, which is bad enough at the best of times(I have paranoid personality disorder and anti-social personality disorder) so those types of settings just aren't good for me on my own.
 
Terrarian said:
I walk round the park with Daisy, I'm hoping for a better summer with less rain so we can go further afield though. I try to mix it up for her so she doesn't do the same walk but it's hard when it pisses down all the time.

My therapist asked about going somewhere different, she said the pub but I don't drink. Thing is I can't be around other people for long and I'd also get paranoid on my own, which is bad enough at the best of times(I have paranoid personality disorder and anti-social personality disorder) so those types of settings just aren't good for me on my own.
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Yeah, that's a doozy of a situation really.

You don't have to drink alcohol though mate - this is purely anecdotal and personal but it helped me back when I was in Scotland - have like a quick lunch or something, sit in at the chippy for a bit, basically anything. I know from experience that these times definitely seem dire like, but you know there's some stuff you enjoy, be it food or something - try to do that but in a different place, if that makes sense?

Lucky to have a puppy with you too to be honest mate, I missed mine like crazy when I wasn't back home!
 

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