Really struggling with anxiety lately unfortunately. I've dealt with depression since I was in high school (10 years ago) and had gotten pretty good with dealing with it (I went to counseling during uni and tried to keep up with what I learned).
This anxiety thing is throwing me for a loop. It's resulting in a drastic loss in sleep, unhealthy dietary choices, and weight gain. My family has a history of anxiety as well (mom and sister).
It's almost entirely due to work as the increase in anxiety pretty much as coincided with my new position I started last December. The first 6 months weren't too bad but then our contract turned over to a new company and it's been hell ever since. Their corporate structure is entirely inept and understaffed which results in a lack of support for our program (often a hindrance to us as well). I feel as if the role doesn't suit my personality or personal philosophy at all, however I will likely not be able to find a better position elsewhere as I lack an actual skill (worked my way up here by just performing routine office work adequately). Also due to family situations I can't really quit without a new job lined up without significantly destroying my savings.
Just needed to rant somewhere while I look for a therapist haha.
Sorry to hear this mate. I think it's quite a common situation for people to find themselves in these days, especially since the gap in wage and cost of living increases is getting wider and wider. It is perceived as more and more of a risk to abandon the devil you know in favour of something new.
I had a similar situation myself, about 4.5 years ago now. We had just had our second child and so I was torn between the idea of keeping a steady (and decent) income to continue supporting my family at a comfortable level, or getting out of the job that would make me come home some combination of angry and stressed most days.
Ultimately, I decided I would rather my boys get the best of me. I am not going to downplay the importance of money, especially to those for whom it is scarce, but if you CAN afford to prioritise your mental health and happiness, even if it means destroying your savings then I think you should. What are those savings for? A rainy day? A comfortable future? How much more rainy are you going to let it get? What kind of future will it be if this place keeps chipping away at your mental wellbeing?
All so much more easily said than done, I know. Just my two pence, FWIW.
Whatever you decide, I wish you the best, mate. Good luck.
