Posted something similar in the covid thread but probably also fits in here too. It's now 8 days since I've had face to face interactions with anyone other than at the supermarket cash desk. All the media panic of the last couple of weeks has got to me more than at any time during the pandemic. Was invited to a friend's for dinner tonight and have just cancelled. Would've been 4 people from 3 household so slightly against the rules anyway. But I shat it basically, images of new variants and long covid going through my mind. I lied and said I was feeling a bit under the weather so I don't feel great about lying to my friends either. Overall I don't feel depressed or anything but worried about how long that will last the longer I stay away from people. I'm probably over dramatising things a bit. I guess I'll just need to make more effort to meet friends outdoors for the time being.
I don't think your alone in doing what you've done mate so it doesn't make you a bad person by any stretch. I had my mother in law and husband round for dinner last night. She's been in our bubble since the start and he's been really unwell and was in hospital (where he caught Covid).
Hand on heart, honestly my instinct was to just to tell the missus that they can't come and I'd deliver a dinner to them just because I've had the mindset that the less people we are in contact with the better. All the whilst I don't think there has barely been a day in the last 9 months where my wife hasn't been in contact with a Covid patient so the odds are if we were going to get it, it would be through that way.
My wife has had the vaccine, I know at some point next year I'll be offered it and so I know at some point next year we'll be back on the road to normality. All I tell myself is its short term pain for long term gain.
I haven't gone 8 days without seeing anyone and no doubt I won't as I'll be back working again soon. But I can honeslty say if a mate invited me for a meal now, i simply wouldn't go though I see no harm in seeing someone outside socially distanced.
It won't always be like this mate and it's just a case of trying to make sensible decisions when possible