Unlike most of my posts which I try to embody logic, here I will delve into the more passionate side of the game.
The most joy I've ever felt watching Everton was an away match at Vitality Stadium in Nov 2015. Ross had just banged in the winner at 90+5. I don't know if it was just my personal perspective, or if my emotions were just right for the occasion; but, I was absolutely beaming in positivity that a squad with young talents the likes of Romelu Lukaku, Ross Barkley, Gerard Deulofeo, and John Stones were able to grit out a win in a tough game where they didn't play particularly well.
Unfortunately, that taste of joy turned to ashes in my mouth mere moments later as a Junior Stanislas strike found the back of the net at 90+8. There was nothing overly important about the match in the grand scheme of things but the brutal tenacity in which my joy was snatched away left me bitter and cold.
I continue to have hope but with our current crop of players and feelings of what could/should have been I cant help but feel somehow deceived. Will the glimmer I saw of what could have been ever materialize into reality? Our brightest young talent nearly all gone; in its place seasoned veterans that don't mesh, and lack purpose and grit, spearheaded by a manager who seems to have wasted an incredible investment, and refuses to admit fault in his strategy.
I don't know what makes a great game, but I do know what it feels like witnessing one. If one could bottle the feeling I had in those brief moments we would have the cure for all things. Like an addict, I will continue to seek that joy every match day; more often than not suffering tragic heartache upon it's conclusion, knowing that the more brutal that the bitter journey is, the sweeter the eventual destination will become.