This next appointment will determine the direction that the level of my support goes in.
Never have I felt like this. Perhaps because I was a younger man I managed to get through our past flirtations with relegation. I don't know. But this time, I feel different. I'm at the end of my tether. Only the prospect of a new stadium has kept me interested these last couple of years.
But this shambles right now is overshadowing that even.
To be honest, I expected that last night (as did the vast majority of our fans). But, I didnt expect to be numb about losing by that many to that shower. Will always love the club and follow our fortunes, but if we get this next appointment wrong my attendance at matches will diminish.