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Player Valuation: £80m
That all sounds quite positive Messy. Just keep on taking every day as it comes. All you can do really.Sorry not been on much today. Had a couple of appointments to keep and also fell asleep on the sofa again.
Palliative nurse came she's just going to keep me on a watching brief for the time being.
The ultrasound was good as there were no blood clots in my left leg which was the worst of the legs. I'm still going to need to careful but at least there is no immediate danger.
Mixed emotions today. Gave Cal a great send off. Great turn out with lots of old faces. But a touch of reality bites when it sinks in she isn't going to be about anymore.
Anyway deffo a lot more laughing than crying today which is how she would have wanted it








