Leaving the forum...and Everton

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Durham Toffee

Durham Toffee

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I am posting this, not out of arrogance or egotism, but out of honour and honesty.

A few of you will know me and will know my story. I came to this forum a few years ago when things were great and life was fantastic...

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/threads/my-wife-made-me-support-everton.69466/#post-2961369

...but a lot has happened since I made that post. Many of you were very much involved in that situation and saw my life descend into chaos. Many of you contributed; many of you rescued me from the depths of self-pity and thoughts of suicide and much darker things than that.

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/...p-on-depression-related-issues.62441/page-120

It all started then...back in April. I've not slept in my own bed since, in my house. Nor am I destined ever to do that again. A lot of water has passed under that bridge.

I'm making this thread to say thank you.

You are an amazing set of people. Truly fantastic. I will always love you and always respect you for what you have done. My wife got me into Everton, and my wife left me the night I watched an Everton game.

For that, Everton will always been tinged with a bittersweet sadness I can never come to terms with.

I will miss Everton greatly, and you all especially. But I can't do it. I've tried and it just hurts too much.

I will keep my membership open and I will honour payments for the subscription fee annually until the day I die. I will do that for the love, honesty, sacrifice and sheer support and determination I was shown by a plethora of people on this forum.

I'm not afraid to say that I am tearful now, writing this. You're a wonderful bunch. More my family than any other people have been this year, aside from a select few.

I will always love you all and I will always love Everton, but I can't come here again and Goodison Park holds too many ghosts for me to ever visit.

All the best, lids.

You're amazing.
 
Durham Toffee said:
I am posting this, not out of arrogance or egotism, but out of honour and honesty.

A few of you will know me and will know my story. I came to this forum a few years ago when things were great and life was fantastic...

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/threads/my-wife-made-me-support-everton.69466/#post-2961369

...but a lot has happened since I made that post. Many of you were very much involved in that situation and saw my life descend into chaos. Many of you contributed; many of you rescued me from the depths of self-pity and thoughts of suicide and much darker things than that.

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/...p-on-depression-related-issues.62441/page-120

It all started then...back in April. I've not slept in my own bed since, in my house. Nor am I destined ever to do that again. A lot of water has passed under that bridge.

I'm making this thread to say thank you.

You are an amazing set of people. Truly fantastic. I will always love you and always respect you for what you have done. My wife got me into Everton, and my wife left me the night I watched an Everton game.

For that, Everton will always been tinged with a bittersweet sadness I can never come to terms with.

I will miss Everton greatly, and you all especially. But I can't do it. I've tried and it just hurts too much.

I will keep my membership open and I will honour payments for the subscription fee annually until the day I die. I will do that for the love, honesty, sacrifice and sheer support and determination I was shown by a plethora of people on this forum.

I'm not afraid to say that I am tearful now, writing this. You're a wonderful bunch. More my family than any other people have been this year, aside from a select few.

I will always love you all and I will always love Everton, but I can't come here again and Goodison Park holds too many ghosts for me to ever visit.

All the best, lids.

You're amazing.
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Best of luck for the future you absolute loon.

When you have a new missus and life is good again make sure you drop by the forum to say hello - as the cliche goes, time is a great healer x
 
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bloody hell mate ! the blues will always be here ! hopefully you'll come back ! maybe if we win the league this year or another ! good luck for future !
 
Durham Toffee said:
I am posting this, not out of arrogance or egotism, but out of honour and honesty.

A few of you will know me and will know my story. I came to this forum a few years ago when things were great and life was fantastic...

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/threads/my-wife-made-me-support-everton.69466/#post-2961369

...but a lot has happened since I made that post. Many of you were very much involved in that situation and saw my life descend into chaos. Many of you contributed; many of you rescued me from the depths of self-pity and thoughts of suicide and much darker things than that.

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/...p-on-depression-related-issues.62441/page-120

It all started then...back in April. I've not slept in my own bed since, in my house. Nor am I destined ever to do that again. A lot of water has passed under that bridge.

I'm making this thread to say thank you.

You are an amazing set of people. Truly fantastic. I will always love you and always respect you for what you have done. My wife got me into Everton, and my wife left me the night I watched an Everton game.

For that, Everton will always been tinged with a bittersweet sadness I can never come to terms with.

I will miss Everton greatly, and you all especially. But I can't do it. I've tried and it just hurts too much.

I will keep my membership open and I will honour payments for the subscription fee annually until the day I die. I will do that for the love, honesty, sacrifice and sheer support and determination I was shown by a plethora of people on this forum.

I'm not afraid to say that I am tearful now, writing this. You're a wonderful bunch. More my family than any other people have been this year, aside from a select few.

I will always love you all and I will always love Everton, but I can't come here again and Goodison Park holds too many ghosts for me to ever visit.

All the best, lids.

You're amazing.
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There will be better times lid, better than before even. Count on it.

Come and see us then and keep your chin up.
 
Durham Toffee said:
I am posting this, not out of arrogance or egotism, but out of honour and honesty.

A few of you will know me and will know my story. I came to this forum a few years ago when things were great and life was fantastic...

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/threads/my-wife-made-me-support-everton.69466/#post-2961369

...but a lot has happened since I made that post. Many of you were very much involved in that situation and saw my life descend into chaos. Many of you contributed; many of you rescued me from the depths of self-pity and thoughts of suicide and much darker things than that.

https://www.grandoldteam.com/forum/...p-on-depression-related-issues.62441/page-120

It all started then...back in April. I've not slept in my own bed since, in my house. Nor am I destined ever to do that again. A lot of water has passed under that bridge.

I'm making this thread to say thank you.

You are an amazing set of people. Truly fantastic. I will always love you and always respect you for what you have done. My wife got me into Everton, and my wife left me the night I watched an Everton game.

For that, Everton will always been tinged with a bittersweet sadness I can never come to terms with.

I will miss Everton greatly, and you all especially. But I can't do it. I've tried and it just hurts too much.

I will keep my membership open and I will honour payments for the subscription fee annually until the day I die. I will do that for the love, honesty, sacrifice and sheer support and determination I was shown by a plethora of people on this forum.

I'm not afraid to say that I am tearful now, writing this. You're a wonderful bunch. More my family than any other people have been this year, aside from a select few.

I will always love you all and I will always love Everton, but I can't come here again and Goodison Park holds too many ghosts for me to ever visit.

All the best, lids.

You're amazing.
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It'll get better mate
Drop in when it does and tell us all about it.
 
Mate, good to hear from you again.

Take some time off. Get your head and life in order. Don't be so final in your decision not to post in here again. Just do it every now and then as a release from the rest of your life like some us do.

Come in and say a hi every now and then. We would like to hear from you.
 
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