tbh, I'm finding it pretty hard atm, feel like my life is being utterly wasted.
I get it, and I'm lucky that I haven't had this (or if I did I didn't know) and my priority is hoping my parents and family don't get it too.
Just a small part of me recently is really fed up. I started a relationship with someone last year which we just ultimately couldn't make work because of the constant lockdowns and restrictions. I'm 26 in two months, got mates who are getting married, my younger sister's having a kid.
Not saying I want to do any of that just yet, but in that sense it's hard enough meeting someone nowadays as it is, never mind in a bloody pandemic. Trying to save up for a house, trying to keep my career going and have had to take a fair step back since this time last year.
There's other things that have only happened because COVID happened which have been a positive - definitely feel fitter than I did this time last year for example - but just feel like it's going to be two years of my life completely wasted. Don't know if that's because I'm single or whatever, but it does get you down a bit, so when you see all this talk of vaccines maybe not working 100% straight away I honestly struggle to care. It shouldn't mean we don't get back to normality because we all only have a very limited amount of time and I think everyone's attitude should be to make the most of it.
I obviously don't want that to be at the expense of other people's lives, but the key is the vaccine - just feels like people keep moving the goalposts.
Mate, I've been pretty hard on you in here, but I'm honestly very sad to hear this. I was only chatting to the missus last night and a few things really hit me. The main thing is that we've personally had it very good, and so it has led me to grossly underestimate the impact it is having on other people. For instance, even though I lost my job, we're at least locked up together in a nice house, all my hobbies and pursuits are indoors and, being in our mid-thirties, our social calendar wouldn't have been particularly full even in optimal non-pandemic conditions. I'm not saying this to rub it in, but to say sorry.
I haven't comprehended what it's doing to people who are in those active, upward stages of their lives and I don't know what I would have done if I had effectively missed out on what could be 2 years at that particular stage of my development. I've been ignorant at times in here and my apologies for that.
Just in terms of your personal life. My GF and I will be going out 10 years in August, so that would mean that I met her when I was 26. We only bought a house 2 years ago. There will be plenty of time to address all that when this is over so don't feel like it's time lost, it's all ahead of you. In the meantime, I have taken up online courses and re-engaged with old hobbies to keep developing personally and professionally. It's done me the world of good. By the time this crap is over, there's a few goals I want to have achieved and am well on course to do so. I would advise anyone who's struggling to do the same if you can. Hope you start feeling better soon
