I stopped playing attention late afternoon yesterday as after the Negredo deal was nixed, I had developed a sinking feeling and needed to stop seeing David Beckham's and Harry Redknapp's irritating faces on screen. Woke up at 2am and couldn't resist checking to see what we had done, of course nothing of substance and my initial reaction was bitter disappointment. I know we've got this lad John Barnes from Stonesly or whatever, name sounds sort of familiar but I've never heard of him. He'll probably turn out to be a great signing but certainly not what is going to push us over the top. But in general whenever I am stressed or frustrated at a situation out of my control my natural response is to try and take a step back, rationalise why things happened the way they did, and accept it.
What I'd like to believe? David Moyes had been given discretion with a limited but not unsubstantial amount of funds to bring in a player or two to shore up the midfield and attack and help us achieve 4th and/or an FA cup. He didn't see anyone out there worth the cash and so is saving his dry powder for the summer. Had he been planning to walk at the end of the season, he'd have spunked everything he could on players now in order to make a final push and damn the consequences. Moyes can't afford to take risks and is limited to buying players that are not at but below market value at there weren't any such bargains available. He wisely avoided panic buying. He believes the current squad is strong enough to get 4th and win the FA cup.
Of course, the above is probably a wagonload of ****e.
I don't know what I even actually believe about what happened, has he been backed and chose not to spend, was the money never there, I am not going to get into any speculation about it because it's pointless. All I do know is that I'm tired of it. Tired of empty promises. Tired of seeing our best/most ambitious players leave for whatever reasons they may have. Tired of rumours of investment or takeovers just about the time season tickets go on sale. Tired of having signings supposedly happening and then falling through for some seemingly irrelevant reason. We hear what sound like they could be valid excuses for each incident, but it seems that that's all the club is good at doing, is making excuses. I'm not casting blame here, I'm not saying anything specifically is the club's or Moyes' or the board's fault, but a trend has been established and it's a bad one. It makes anything positive that the club does (i.e. Mirallas signing) a surprise and failure/mediocrity the expected outcome. I'm a pretty patient person. I am an understanding person. I can always see where a bit of bad luck or an outlier poor decision can lead to an bad result. What I am not, however, is stupid. Something is systematically defective about how Everton Football Club is run.
Example: I have been to four matches in the last season and a half and every single time they've run out of pies by halftime. I know it's a minor thing but it's symptomatic of how the club is run. Problems, simple as they may be, aren't identified and dealt with. How hard is it to say, we keep running out of pies, let's stock more. Instead when I'm there next month again I'll just bring a sandwich or something and my money will be going to somewhere that isn't Everton FC. Because I've been conditioned to expect things not to get better.
I'm not going to stop supporting the club or stop flying over to Liverpool and going to matches when I can. I'm not going to hope Moyes leaves and the club goes into freefall so the Board "get shown up". I'm just sad because what I see is a club with great players, great history and support, and one of the best managers in the game. Incredible potential to become one of the top teams in the Premier League, and to become a global brand. And I see that potential being ignored and not taken advantage of. I could accept a policy of 0 or negative net spend over the coming X years, if it were to support a new stadium, an expanded youth academy a la Ajax, and/or an improved scouting network. At least in that case there would be some sign of progress, some sign that the people who make decisions are making some sort of plan for the future and not just bumbling along from year to year. I'd take an Arsenal scenario, as furious as their fans probably are. At least they don't have to fear the club getting relegated and going bust if their manager leaves.
Maybe that idealistic scenario I posted above is actually the case this time. Maybe the board did everything it could to strengthen and there are reasonable excuses as to why nobody was brought in. But we hear the same sort of story every single time. I'm done having the least bit of optimism in any transfer window under the current regime. All it does is leave me with a bad case of blue balls.
Too right I'm bitter.