Been in my job for 4 years. Received fantastic reviews. I said in my interview that no wasn’t interested in compliments, I was interested in criticism, that was how I thought I could get better.
4 years ago I used to run, I ran 5k daily in sub 23mins. Today I couldn’t run 5k in an hour, I smoke 20 a day and drink to the point of blackout 3 times a week.
The truest word I ever spoke was that I wasn’t interested in compliments, I can’t grasp them, I only find the negatives. I can barely get a word out of my daughter anymore and my son is too young to know any different.
On the positive side I work 6 days a week to try and make sure the family is secure. But ultimately my determination for perfection at my workplace is now costing me, and will definitely cost me long term, if not sooner.