Please do not apologize for sharing your story. It's important for healing and this is an amazing community that will no doubt rally to your side in your moment of need.
You are not alone. Keep reaching out for assistance with the grieving...
Tell him mate.
Tell him straight why its important that you are there together on Sunday. Tell him why it's eaten you up inside that he hasn't been there with you and it's absolutely killed you.
Tell him that you've been paying for the 2 season...