Racing is frozen off Blue. Replaced by episodes of The Sweeney and The Saint. At least my betting pot isn't taking a hit. Not been very lucky lately. Mind you, I still have the £50 I opened it with about 6 years ago.
I've not really dwelled on it, but you're quite right, it does for some reason feel a bit harder at this time of year. Probably because Cal loved Christmas. We'd have been out most days visiting the Christmas market in Truro or the plethora of large country houses that decorate at this time of year or hold seasonal fairs selling seasonal fayres. If you get my drift.
But you get to play the cards you're dealt and I accept my life is very different these days. I get by and count myself fortunate that there are many people a lot worse off than me. That's one of the things I learned from Karl. A true inspiration that lad.