Thats kinda why I have/do still find it hard to get over Nikki mate. During her final 18 months at home, we talked about all the stuff we would do once she was strong enough, cos we both understood that she would be vulnerable for the rest of her life.
To have that all lobbed in the bin in a few short hours is sommet I still get sad/angry/self pitied about. Not all the time, but its never far away. And its the hardest thing to explain to folk, unless they have experienced it as well. Ironically, me ex wife is the only person who gets it, unfortunately. (Her 2nd husband was wiped out in a motorbike crash, blimey, must be 15 years ago now).
My best mate said to me soon after she left us. "I buried my 96 year old Mum 2 months ago Roydo, I know how you feel". No mate, that aint remotely the same thing I was thinking as he said it.