I was in the same place around 2 years ago...surrounded by friends and family all supporting Liverpool, United etc...felt like " whats the point?"...did something very controversial but saved my mental health and pissed em all off

Going to get slammed for this but started following a " second" team..a team that won, had money and none our issues...still loved Everton of course, never got " divorced" from Everton, just got to go out with a "fitter bird" every now and then. Made the weekends a little more enjoyable...ashamed to even share but it worked for me. ( tbf I was getting PTSD treatment for other things at the time).