I alway,s thought the lad blows hot and cold, if he makes a great save he fists pumps like a maniac.. If he makes a blunder, he blames all around him... Only keeper we ever had to earn that right was our Welsh bin man.
You need to let the anger go , and trust in your own instincts regarding where your are as a person..
I reckon everyone has had a desire to live up to what our older siblings precieved to what our Dad should be.. Strong, fit, always gonna be there for ya ...
My Dad died when i was 15, (1977) ...