Firstly, sorry for your loss moosed.
I see this from both sides , people on here know that I wrk on a daily basis with some very mentally unwell people.....in 7 years I've 'lost' for want of a better word ... 4 people to suicide .... There are no words to describe the anguish a person is going through to carry this out...let alone consider it as an option... On the other hand, my friend Ritchie is an Arriva driver and drives the train from here to London Euston most days he works . 18 months ago Ritchie had a jumper... His first one, Arriva paid him a small compensation fee and e was off fr 6 months on full pay.... Ha came back to work, drove a train to London in the day , drove one back at night, got 22 miles from home and had another jumper.... Life is strange.