Back to my earlier post. Have you been the doctors Ash? Don't want to pry too much like but if so what have they said?
To be honest mate I think the best solution I can have is to get out of that place. Think the minute I do things will start to have an upturn in feelings knowing I'm not trapped there for a start. Hopefully I get that chance tomorrow but no guarantees.
Thst mat be an option though if things don't go down the line the way I want them to. Just because it is crushing being in that scenario. When you know you can't vent in there and can't vent outside for fear of bringing it home I tend to bottle it up a little bit if that makes sense. So perhaps a month or two down the line if I'm still feeling the way I am then that may be an option for me mate. Even enquiring in work about any support programs, glorified councillors or whatever you call them but someone I can vent to, that could be an option for me.
I think that may be it, venting it out. It's hard to do that without it turning into anger or aggression but without it it seems to play on my mind, which at 9-5 all week isn't a good thing.