In 1985, just after Heysel, Everton were in Toronto for an exhibition match against some team I can't remember. Afterward we got to chat with the players on the pitch and I got a few autographs. As I was approaching John Bailey, my aunt Janet...
@KaiserEFC has said, you'll be inundated by admin which will make you angry. Funnily enough, it can also be a blanket over the flames forr a bit. When my partner ddied five years ago, I found that there were physical changes ... wierd...
Really sorry to hear absolutely the worst thing anybody can go through.
If I can give some advice from personal experience (not that it’s probably worth much) give yourself as much time to grieve as you can and don’t do it alone because you can...